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Should I Make a Live Streaming account?
Then I thought about making a Twitch, but sometimes I just spend hours vectoring things.
shhhh
Everyone wants my opinion on things.
I just want to fight to live past tomorrow.
I did it
It mainly has to do with my living conditions currently. My apartment isn't a place I feel comfortable doing work in, half because I am used to living in the school's library and computer lab and the other half is that my roommates are angered that I am not the social butterfly as they are and think I'm a selfish dick who only thinks about herself. It angers me too, but they are right. I am too selfish to give into their requests of changing the way I enjoy spending my free time, the amount of friends I hang out everyday, and the awkwardness that I bring into every conversation.
But I digress. I can no longer take any more of these art classes because it requires me to set up still life and sit there until the piece is done which is extremely difficult for me. I am much used to sitting in the school library and there is nowhere I can actually set up something to draw and might not finish within the day. The art department at this university is also underfunded so there aren't really places to set up either since all classrooms are used multiple times a day for classes. It's really not dependable place if I truly wanted to go into the subject.
In contrast of not wanting move in, I'm afraid to leave where I currently stand. Where I am, it is a little piece of heaven. Nerds. Nerds as far as the eye can see. A world where people pour their life into learning, build machines with their own hands, and believe gaming is a sport. It's where the gifted are not envied from afar, but begged for help. The art department seems to have the complete opposite of the last one.
Somewhere deep in my heart told me this is where I belong. I have finally seen both worlds and decided to stay in one while no longer what I am missing out on in the other.
What Pokemon means to me
Ever since discovering Pokemon in 1998, I have been deeply in love with the franchise. The big problem was I had a very strict family that banned electronic gaming in our household because of the time "wasted" on gaming and the cost of them.
My cousins seeing this, they gave me Pokemon game roms I could play on my computer. It was thrilling to play Pokemon Blue on my Windows 98 computer, but it did not satisfy me. I was missing out on the fun: the trading and the battling with friends.
Years go by, I watch consoles change, games advance, more people playing at school. I stayed at home playing my emulators, collecting small toys, picking up old trading cards people tried to throw away.
The PokeWalker for HeartGold/SoulSilver made me even more left out while people were sharing mystery gifts while I played on a constantly crashing emulator, alone. I always wanted to see my Haunter evolve into a Gengar, but I was never able to trade. Using game cheats never felt real enough.
Now with X and Y coming out, I feel even more behind. The whole world having a synchronized release date, rebirth of old Pokemon with Mega evolutions, internet cloud storage, and 3D interface. I will once again be missing out on all of this. Such a big release and hype makes me almost want to cry that I won't be a part of it.
Many question what I will be after I finish my education, where I'm going to live, and how much money I will make, but these questions I do not know a direct answer to. I do know this. What I definitely want to do is buy all the Pokemon game versions and 2 of every Nintendo console. I know these game hypes come and go so I will use the second console to trade and evolve my Pokemon. It will be lonely, but practical. But the absolutely most important thing is, I will catch them all.
"Gotta catch 'em all", right? The entire franchise's slogan when it started. It was repeated in every commercial, on every game pack, on every board game, at the beginning of every one of their earliest movies. At 5 years old, it was what I lived and breathed. It was the only thing I truly believed. Catching them all and being the Pokemon Master. No one could express how important that feeling was to a kindergartener's life. The feeling still resonates with my soul every time I think of it. It opens my eyes and makes me realize the answer to my future.
When I grow up, I want to catch them all.